Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Discovering Pure Joy

I'm not talking about some swanky perfume. Hello, I'm a mummy, we don't indulge ourselves with such wasteful pleasures, or rather we pretend not to and do it on the sly.

What's more important is, this weekend I re-discovered true joy. Don't you remember the blissed out feeling that  used to wash over us once we handed in our last exam paper of the term and had 60 days of summer fun ahead. I unexpectedly had that experience after years.

We were having a family wine session on Saturday night. There was some dance music on, the adults were chattering away and the kids were going crazy trying to keep up with the music and their made up moves. All of a sudden my mom (who does not touch alcohol) nudged me and pointed at my daughter. My little angel was dancing, not her usual bounce, but real dance steps. Crossing her feet, doing a gentle wave with her arms and best of all she had this totally blissed out expression on her face. I can't explain how or why, but for the next 15 minutes I was as oblivious to my surroundings as my baby girl. Her pure joy in dancing some how transferred it self to me and I entered this trance like state of total contentment and serenity.

If this sounds too New Age to any of you, don't worry, it feels the same to me. This is not me, I'm an overworked, highly-stressed, over-analysing individual, like most moms of my generation.

However, for those 15 minutes I was in a place I thought had disappeared with my childhood.

When I came out of my trance I nudged the techie and pointed at the munchkin, with the hope that he would get a glimpse into paradise.  

12 comments:

  1. this is the best way to keep in touch with you, so I for the most part don't miss your posts! this one is special! very sweet and I know what you mean!

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  2. Yeah - wine will do that to you. (Just joking.)

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  3. Such a great feeling -- tapping into that freedom of childhood.

    (stopping over from SITS!)

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  4. Deepti @ you really keep me going on the days I question if I should stop blogging coz I'm making a fool of myself. This is a great way to keep in touch. Your blog especially has me planning our home-visits months ahead.

    Mwa @ the wine does help ;-)

    Elizabeth @ Thank you for visiting. I totally agree.

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  5. I totally understand, great post! Thanks for visiting my blog, I like yours!

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  6. Geekymummy @ :-) You made my day

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  7. what a lovely post, I hope your small window in heaven returns often enough :)

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  8. Melissa @ I truly wish every adult gets to experience this sort of moment once in a while

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  9. One of my favorite memories from this year was watching my son Griffin (then age two-and-a-quarter) dancing to live music during a downtown festival. For him, "dancing" means essentially "jumping." He was grinning ear-to-ear while hopping when a little girl who looked about four years old grabbed his hands. They danced together for 10 or 15 minutes. Bliss!

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  10. PS: Thanks for listing me in your blogroll!

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  11. Sarah @ It is special, mere words cannot explain the feeling. Your welcome, you have a very different blog

    Whispering Writer @ thank you, I guess it was written from the heart. I'm off to visit your blog

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